When I was 14 I had a crush on some moron with green hair in my school. His name was Thor. No joke. One time I saw him around the corner in my way to class and spontaneously decided to give him a hug. This action shocked me. The butterflies in my belly fluttered like crazy. It was only a hug. God damn how fucking teenage. I remembered this experience and felt annoyed. I’ve Always hated being a teenager and going through the motions of hormonal changes and unrealistic expectations if people. Now that I reflect on my self, I feel that I was silly.
And also now that I find myself crying over lost family, friends, and relationships I wonder if I will regard myself the same way when I’m old.
Since I continue treating the internet like a fucking therapist.
We’re all just a collection of particles and energy and when we die, we’re either turned to nothing or transfer our energy into something else.